Admitting we have failed, falsely following our flesh, is difficult. We find ourself on the wrong path. That is where I found myself, yet again, this August. As mentioned in my last post Don’t Look Back I admitted how I had found myself drowning in my scrolls of social media once again. To say I was distracted would be an understatement. I was addicted.
Scrolling, posting, & liking were a sacrifice. I sacrificed time with my family, prayer, reading God’s word, reading anything, sleep, kisses, hugs, sunshine, exercise, quietness & more all on the alter of Facebook in the pursuit of self promotion & faux inclusion. How could this, Facebook, be more important than any of these things?
“Making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is.”Ephesians 5:16-17 ESV
Asking God to forgive me was difficult. Here I sat, phone in hand, wasting the one life the Creator has given me. Jesus saying “follow me” but His voice, His Truth, was drowned out by photos of what a person I “know of” is eating for dinner, memes, or political comment wars. Here I was reading post after post instead of scripture & wondering why I felt so awful, so lost, so disconnected. Even the well meaning christian authors & bloggers weren’t enough to lead me back to Christ, I just saw them which heightened my craving for my own personal success in the writing world.
Writing has been on my heart since I was a child. I desire for God to use me, to reach women through my words. Curating posts, seeking to attract followers & likes, changing my profile picture, creating a page…. I don’t want to be a public figure. Here I was trying to build “myself” up for the sake of my blog. Psalms 127:1 tells us “Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain.”
“But whatever you do, find the God-centered, Christ-exalting, Bible-saturated passion of your life, and find your way to say it and live for it and die for it. And you will make a difference that lasts. You will not waste your life.”John Piper, Don’t Waste Your Life
Matthew 7:13 tells us to “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.” Facebook is this road for me & sadly probably for many others. I will choose the narrow way, the only following I want to do is to follow Jesus, to lay down my phone & take up my cross. (Matthew 16:24-26 ESV)
This is against the grain, yes. This is against every blog tutorial I have read. I may lose followers. I may miss out on a large following. This is all okay. I will share what God leads me to write & I will trust that He will lead those who need to read these words to my blog. As Ephesians 3:20 says “Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us,” I surrender my blog at the feet of the cross. His will be done. I will lay down my social media life in order to not waste this life as I glorify the one who gives eternal life.
“My joy grows with every soul that seeks the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. Remember, you have one life. That’s all. You were made for God. Don’t waste it.”John Piper, Don’t Waste Your Life