• Fit & Faithful

    Desolate Wilderness: Part II

    17.5 Million This is how many plastic surgeries took place in 2017 according to the American Society of Plastic Surgeons. Of the 17.5 million 300,378 were breast augmentation, 246,354 liposuction, 218,924 nose reconstruction, & 129,753 tummy tucks. I don’t think the message could be any more clear, that we are completely unhappy & dissatisfied with how we look physically. Through magazines, media, & more we are bombarded with what “beautiful” looks like. Beauty through societies eyes is defined exclusively to physical features. Every where we look men & women’s eyes are exposed to scantily clad women (& occasionally men) & products that are too aide us in our endless pursuit…

  • Healing Harbor

    A Letter to My Body

    Written 12/13/2017 To My Body,  Today we took a shower. It has been less than 48 hours since I tortured you once again. Less than 3 years ago I violated you. I told you, you weren’t good enough while I looked at you with disgust. I had tried for years to make you different, like someone else. I dressed you uncomfortably & forced pads & underwires to increase where I felt you lacked. I misused you to feel loved. I exposed you for attention. Then I took it even further, I forced you to sleep & let another forcefully insert foreign objects into you thinking they would complete you, they…

  • Fit & Faithful

    Desolate Wilderness: Part I

    You know the term late bloomer, well, I was more of a “never” bloomer. I always felt self-conscious about the lack of chest size, I would even wear a padded bra under my sports bra when I played soccer so I wouldn’t look so flat. Most of us can think of something right off the bat that we dislike, or would change, about ourselves. Breast augmentation was something I joked about often. As I was pregnant with each of our 3 children I would marvel through the pain of milk production because for a short time I had size C breast. After delivery I would deflate right back into reality.…

  • Healing Harbor

    A Letter to My Baby….

    Dear Baby, Hello, it’s your mother. I honestly question at times if I deserve to be called that. A mother is to protect, love, & raise up her child. The biggest mistake of my life; I failed you. When I realized I was pregnant I was shocked. I wondered about you, if you were really in there. I wasn’t in a healthy relationship, I honestly wasn’t healthy mentally or physically either. I was lost, down a dark lonely path, searching for love.  I was told I was pregnant by a nurse. I was told you were unwanted. I was told you would be denied. I was told how much you would cost.…

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